The illustration above is very pertinent right now as 4 weeks ago, I lost my job. There was no warning. I walked into work and was told that there was no more work in the pipeline. These things happen when you freelance. (I have been freelancing for the last 2 years, writing wellbeing books for a publishing company.)
Now, there are two ways to view this turn of events.
1) The Universe has just crapped on me from a great height.
2) The Universe has just answered my prayers.
I’m going with option 2. Here’s why:
I have been finding it harder and harder to juggle working in an office with blogging, writing my novel, writing picture books, and illustrating/selling t-shirts. My energy felt scattered. My brain was all over the place. I was trying to do too many things.
Feeling a tad desperate one day, I looked up at the sky and asked it/God/energy/the Universe for a sign. (I’m not sure what I believe in; I’m open to all possibilities.)
The very next day, I walked into work and lost my job.
But, as is often the way, this ‘bad’ moment turned out to be a major turning point – because since that day my creativity has soared. All the energy that was consumed by sitting in an office staring at a computer screen is now free to play.
Every day, I open my notebook, pick up my pen, and see what wants to come out. Sometimes it’s a sketch of some bees:
Sometimes it’s a quirky little story:
Other times, it’s something a tad more profound – like the ‘Follow your own star’ doodle which emerged yesterday morning.
So this is the plan:
I am going to take my own advice and follow my own star.
I am going to find myself a physical job which does not involve sitting on my arse in front of a screen all day (I’ve already had an interview for an exciting non-arse-based job).
In my spare time, I will do what my heart and soul want me to do – without worrying how the heck this will ever pay the bills. Right now, my heart wants to doodle and write stories. So doodling and writing is what I will do.
I always wanted to work in publishing. I did it for 2 years and I loved it. Now it’s time for something new…