My Story

The first time I felt my body move spontaneously, I was sitting in bed meditating. I felt a strange urge to move my head and when I allowed it to happen, the rest of my body joined in. Over a period of two weeks, my body moved spontaneously during my daily meditation – it twisted and turned, as if I was being given an internal massage or chiropractic treatment. There was no effort at all. It felt as if I was being guided. And it felt amazing; as if years of stress and tension were being released.

And then, just like that, it stopped.

Trusting my body…

One of the reasons I was able to let go and trust my body was because I was a personal trainer. I was fit and healthy. My body was my friend. If it needed to move in a certain way, I trusted that it knew what it was doing.

However, my mental state was a very different kettle of fish. Ever since my teenage years, it had felt like I was in a near constant state of ‘fight or flight’. My nervous system was overcharged and on high alert. And my social anxiety was so bad, I found meeting anyone (including friends and family), torturous. The only time I felt safe was when I was at home, by myself. Needless to say, I didn’t go out much.

By the time I hit my 40s, I was experiencing horrible heart palpitations which happened several times a day and random stomach pains. My social anxiety meant I had a crippling phobia of speaking in public or being in large groups (I steered clear of both). Not surprisingly, I was also creatively blocked. Despite feeling deep in my heart that I was a writer, I would only write if I was frogmarched to the computer by a horrendous deadline I couldn’t get out of. I literally felt sick at the thought of expressing myself.

I did everything I could to ‘cure’ myself – meditation, yoga, Tai Chi, Qigong, energy healing, affirmations, creative visualisation, herbal medicine, therapy, counselling….

They all helped. A bit. But nothing ever truly changed. I was beginning to think I would be this way FOREVER.

A clue…

One day I picked up a book called The Body Keeps the Score. I learnt how stress and trauma are stored in the body, resulting physical and emotional symptoms.

Hmmm…

I hopped on the computer, googled ‘how to release trauma’, and discovered something called ‘TRE’ (tension and trauma release exercises), a way to trigger a healing tremoring mechanism in the body which we are all born with. I remembered my ‘wobbly meditation’ experience all those years ago and it all clicked into place. I was right – my body had been healing itself!

There was a workshop running in Brighton in two weeks’ time. It felt like fate. I booked myself on it and started practising TRE three times a week.

Amazing things started to happen…

It didn’t happen overnight, but little by little, amazing things started to happen:

My stomach pains disappeared.

My palpitations went from happening up to ten times a day to once or twice a week.

I felt calmer and less triggered by the stresses of everyday life.

And miraculously, I started to feel creative again. I began writing, dancing and drawing.

Bit by bit my life changed beyond recognition. I was so impressed, I trained to become a TRE Practitioner.

My worst fear…

To be honest, when I started my TRE training, I was so petrified of speaking in front of people, I vowed I would only teach individuals and would NEVER EVER teach classes. Ha. Four years later, classes are my favourite way to teach! I still can’t quite believe this, but it’s true! I still have a way to go. I’m not about to volunteer to give speeches to hundreds of people, but that’s OK. I have come such a long way.

The final piece of the puzzle…Star - Copy

What I love about TRE is that you are tapping into the body’s intelligence. Our main job is to get out of the way! So when I came across Shaking Medicine last year during lockdown, I knew it was for me.

Just like TRE, Shaking Medicine harnesses the body’s innate tremor mechanism, but it does it in a more creative way and you can shake in whatever position your body wants – standing up, sitting down, on all fours, or laying down. Once again, I found myself signing up for teacher training and I qualified in 2021.

I now use both TRE and Shaking Medicine to bring my nervous system back into balance. This is an incredibly powerful thing to do for yourself – a balanced nervous system means you feel calm and safe inside. And when you’re calm on the inside, magical things start to happen on the outside. The world begins to open up. Things that were off-limits for you before start to seem possible. Even fun!

Freedom…

How often do we let our bodies do what exactly they want to do? How often do we listen to our internal guidance and let that energy move us? It feels so good to tap into your body’s intelligence. It’s liberating. If you would like to know more, I would love to share this with you :-)

Click here to learn about TRE.
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